I should have won Most Dramatic in high school

I would love to know what it is that I am doing wrong.

Sometimes I feel like this whole world is against me. Like no matter how hard I push to walk forward, I'm stuck in quicksand. Muck. A ginormous blizzard...

Sometimes it is like I am fighting a constant battle against everything and everyone, chiefly myself.

I love myself and who I am, and I have no problem being friends with "me," yet "me" is often my biggest nemesis...my fickle foe who never seems to want to make peace back.

I feel like I want for things I don't know how to find. Simple things and yet, some might say I shouldn't want them at all.

I used to buy into that, but I believe in what I want. I know that there are some things I shouldn't accept to go on without...right?

I guess I'm just feeling...unfulfilled. Like everything I'm doing just won't pay off, in practically every area of my life.

Am I doing too much? Not enough?

I feel like I could just cry.

I guess despite having all the wonderful people in my life that I do, somehow I still feel so alone sometimes. So lost. So...blah.