synonyms for splendid, because splendid is splendid, but I say it too much

I wish that i could be wonderful all the time.
That energy could
-would
always-
emanate from me
like brilliant
dazzling
lavish
lustrous
radiant
resplendent
sumptuous bursts of light.

* post-posting note: my mind is so stuck in math...i read this poem over, and noticed that I had originally typed "radius" where the word "radiant" was supposed to be. How pathetic.

mush

Food for thought: Is it ever humanly possible to give someone your heart without also losing your mind? Bc that's one thing I'd really like to hang onto.

fuck forever. I want to fuck forever.

I.
I have such
a worry in my heart.
I'm scared to be abandoned.
I'm scared.
I don't want to be left
behind. Forgotten.
Don't want to feel that
I was just not good enough
for someone. Not quite right.
Didn't quite fit.

I don't want to blame you, but it didn't have to be this way. You didn't have to steal my forever but
you did.

How High

Waiting in the wings...the novice angel
blinks.

Is this what Heaven is?

It's almost like the Salem Witch Trials...almost.

The pressure on my chest is heavy,and I feel walled up, weighted down. It stacks and stacks and i find myself yearning that it might do as the wind--caress my skin from time to time. Light and airy it would disperse, floating around me, whispering "remember." But on it stacks, like leaden shingles, stacks itself in dense and unrelenting sheets upon my breast.
There is no rest
for me
right now.

I sorta kinda thought i knew

"Cool as shit" he said I was,
the smell of pot swirling through my hair,
his body gourmet to the senses.

I hope this doesn't depress you

I made up an inspirational quote about breaking up. It made one of my friends more sad, but I personally thought it made things sound promising? I don't know. Breaking up sucks no matter how you spin it. But here it is:

Breaking up means that you'll either find yourself, find someone else, or find eachother all over again.

Yes, the latter seems most appealing, but I suppose any of the above could hold great joys...I'm trying to be optimistic.